Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Drawing near.

I've been so bombarded with so much school work and other junk in my life these days that I've totally the most important thing in my life, my God. It's so funny, but more sad, how I can just easily forget and put aside the One that gives me life everyday. Not thinking and not thanking Him enough. But, finals is over and school is over. I'm really stress-free right now, but now theres no more excuses. I can't say that school is making me stressed out and making me so busy that I've been losing my focus. School is over now and I'm drawing near.

I'm drawing near to the throne of grace. A place that desperately wants us, but does not need us. God is calling me back to a place where I once worshiped with passion. I miss those days dearly. No more excuses, no more playing around, I'm back. The song, Heart of Worship comes to mind whenever I'm in these situations where I've been backsliding. "I'm coming back to the heart of worship, where it's all about You, Jesus." It's a great feeling.

On the way home from the gym tonight, I was listening to a sermon on Star 99.1 and the pastor said how you know when you're full of the Spirit when you are enjoying God, but when you're not enjoying God and living for Him, you're not too sure what you're doing. Those are the times you need to just sit back and think. The questions keep coming and you realize that you're not running at the pace you should be. That was me.

I'm running towards the prize and my eyes are fixed on You. An intimate relationship is needed. An honest approach as well. When I'm falling, I need to realize I'm falling. It's only then that the provider will provide. God, I'm coming back.

Pray for Haiti people.

3 comments:

  1. you know when you're full of the Spirit when you are enjoying God, but when you're not enjoying God and living for Him, you're not too sure what you're doing.

    That's soooo unbelievably true. I totally know exactly what that feels like. I keep loosing focus and living for other things. And at the end of the day I forget what I'm supposed to do and who I'm supposed to be.

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