Monday, December 28, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Feet into my Burton Mission boots.. into Burton Freestyle bindings.. on my Burton Custom X '09 147 board.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
“Consider our little friend here,” she began. “Most birds were created to fly. Being grounded for them is a limitation within their ability to fly, not the other way around.” She paused to let Mack think about her statement. “You, on the other hand, were created to be loved. So for you to live as if you were unloved is a limitation, not the other way around.” ---- “Living unloved is like clipping a bird’s wings and removing its ability to fly. Not something I want for you.” (pg. 97)
This little dialogue between Papa and Mack explains a lot to me. We were made to be loved and when we don’t allow God to love us and people to love us, then we are losing our ability. Our characteristic and our best talent goes down the drain. Just like if you clip a bird’s wings, when we don’t allow God to love us, we’re not flying, we’re not what we call, human.
“The problem is that many folks try to grasp some sense of who I am by taking the best version of themselves, projecting that to the nth degree, factoring in all the goodness they can perceive which often isn’t much, and then call that God. And while it may seem like a noble effort, the truth is that it falls pitifully short of who I really am. I’m not merely the best version of you that you can think of. I am far more than that, above and beyond all that you can ask or think.” (pg. 98)
This part is so true. So many times, we as mere humans think that we can explain God and know God fully. We draw up this image in our heads and put the best qualities that we can think of, but God is not one to be grasped. Our finite minds do not have a glimpse of the glory of God. We don’t even understand the simplest things of God because God is so grand and that’s the amazing part. God is far beyond our comprehension and human minds, and we need to realize, who made who.
“Who wants to worship a God who can be fully comprehended, eh? Not much mystery in that.”(pg. 101)
Really, who would want to worship someone that they know fully about? That would make it like worshipping your best friend that you’ve been down with since you were babies. For me, it would be worshipping my best friend Ben and that just doesn’t seem right to me. There is a sense of awe and excitement to not knowing God fully. It would honestly be really weird if God knew me fully because then I would not feel like God is even really worthy to be worshipped because I would be somewhat at his level since I knew everything about Him. The mystery is what keeps me clinging on to Him and find out more about Him throughout my lifetime.
“Love and relationship. All love and relationship is possible for you only because it already exists within Me, within God myself. Love is not the limitation; love is the flying. I am love.”(pg. 101)
Love within the Trinity itself is the reason we even know what love is and the reason why we could even feel it. This helps me to understand why God is love and how the Trinity works within themselves. This is great because love does not just appear out of nowhere and God doesn’t just command us to love one another and Him, but He himself does the very thing and He is the very thing! There is love within the fellowship of the Trinity and that explains why God is so for love and goes so in detail about it in Scripture. Love is what binds us together and we were purposed for love because God is one that shares in that love. It’s an awesome feeling.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
For the past few weeks I have been struggling spiritually and i was just burning up inside with a lot of regret, pain, and anger, but God stepped in. He broke me down on Sunday, September 27, 2009 during praise during Gloria Chapel and it was just amazing. I was singing and the words just struck me.
The words are as follows:
On the cross. You conquered it all. And now I'm free, to live in Your grace. And it's amazing to know You, God.
I was just silent in my heart and the world seemed to cease at this particular moment and God just took me by my heart and made it pump again. He excited my heart once again to bring Him what I could and He made me realize my reason to live again. It was amazing, to know our God.
Since then I've just been getting to know Him more intimately and He really humbled me that day. I came to my senses and all the blame I've been putting on friends and family was brought to God, and God alone.
I've been reading a book that is required for my Introduction to Spiritual Formation class and it was talking about being broken. If we look to Mark 14:32-42, it shows us the passage of Jesus and three of His disciples (Peter, James, and John) in the garden of Gethsemane. In the garden Jesus told His disciples to sit and to listen and pray as He prays to His Father. Despite the fact that all three of the disciples that were there fell asleep, He prayed continuously. He knew that He was going to be crucified and He had to die on the cross for God's redemptive plan to be fulfilled. He was in agony as He knew His end was near, and a painful and terrifying one at that. He came to God the Father in prayer and poured out all He had. He came to His Father with all the pain and focused everything He had on Him. Then He told God about His problem and His pain that He was going through. He KNEW He would have to die and His time is near. He KNEW that Judas Iscariot was going to betray Him. He KNEW He would be whipped and beat, to show the world what love is. He grieved and He cried out to God. He then heard God speak to Him and the matter was settled, He knew it had to be done for God's greater glory. Jesus then left in peace and in His heart forgave those that were going to crucify Him.
I believe this is what happened to me. God let me come to Him and tell Him all that was on my mind and in my heart. The pain and sin. He listened and let me grieve on Him. He settled it for me. Now I need to forgive and let it go because God forgave Me for everything.
This is brokenness.